Crappy days

Where do I start!!! I have had a hell of a time lately.  My Fibro symptoms have gotten really bad but now my Doc actually thinks I have MS instead so have to wait to see Neuro now.  Oh Joy another worry for me.
Saw doc today actually and wished I had not.  I turns out my blood pressure is too high but the low part is too low, WTF does that mean.  My heart rate is also far too fast so next week I have to have yet another ECG.  Bet it is settled by then as this always happens.  Seems I am falling apart quicker than I thought I would/
The main problems are the severe muscle spasms that can last for weeks and the blurred vision and loss of speech.  I slur now and struggle to say quite a few words and also forget what words to use so often use one that has nothing to do with what I wanted to say.  This really annoys Hubby and things are going downhill fast in my marriage as he still expects me to work full time and keep house (no one can keep house with just Fibro let alone my other problems).  He gets angry if I say the wrong thing even though he knows I am struggling and I am starting to believe I will actually be better off on my own as I do not think I can take much more of him always judging, refusing to allow me to take the wheelchair when we go out and basically making me feel worse than I already do.

I have pretty much had enough now.  My meds are always being messed around but like the doc said if it is MS there is no point me taking them anyway.  We are almost broke as I cannot work that often and guess I am lucky I can come and go as I please at work or I would have been sacked by now.  I have managed 3 days in two weeks which is not good and on those days I only worked 4 or 5 hours.  It is a bit of money I guess.

I am trying to get some cash to buy myself a Powerchair as then the miserable old git wont be able to moan that it will damage the car like my electric wheelchair and I will be able to start going out YAYY.  He moans I am getting depressed and our sex life has died.  Hmmm Really well let me run you over with a truck then tie your legs into really painful angles so you cannot move them to relieve the pain and then tell me you feel sexy.  Not going to happen is it???  Also how can I feel attracted to someone who wont take me if I use my chair?  Am I really that embarrassing?
Well sorry but until you start making me feel like your wife you cannot expect wifely duties to happen.......So there!!!! Shove that up your bum and suck on it!!!!!

Ok a bit childish but sex is the last thing on my mind with what I am dealing with at the moment.  If I do have progressive MS then life has a rather bleak outlook

Anyway not a happy blog but at least I remembered to write one at last as I keep forgetting just like I forget everything else lol